My heart!

I hate driving to work every week. It kills me every time I leave home. I don't like to drive down in the morning at 4 am just to be to work at 7 am, but even then I can't stand the thought of leaving my house on a Sunday night to go to Twin the night before, this is even harder. When I walk out the door knowing that I am leaving my family for a week, I die inside. My heart drops to the pit of my stomach. I get a lump in my throat. I tear up. I have no reason or purpose to pursue the rest of the day or week.

Why is this so hard to be away? Why the pain? The little minutes I can steal away and speak with my wife or text her on the phone really help. It gives me enough to make it a little further.

This is Christmas week and even though I am listening to Christmas music I'm still aching inside. I want to be home in the worst way right now. Snuggle up to my wonderful and soft skinned wife. To feel the softness of her cheek against mine this morning was magical and oh so wonderful.

When I have emotional difficulties, she is there. Every time I try to prove myself, she nods with acceptance, even when I over do it. When I cry, she cries. When I laugh, she laughs. When I hurt, she hurts and right now, I hurt. Only, please don't hurt for me my love. I don't like causing you any heartache.

I have a love. A love that is unbreakable, unstoppable, unbeatable. Only God's is greater than this. There is nothing in this world that will pull me away from my wife. She is the most wonderful person and the best thing which has ever happened to me. She knows my heart, my life, and my most intimate details. I have something that she gave me 18 years ago that has reminded me of what we have. Below is a picture of her undying love for me.


I'll dream of you tonight my sweetest love. Keep me in your thoughts and dreams. I shall be home soon. I promise. Thank you for being by my side through thick and thin. This ring is my hope of the rest of our future together. As it is never ending, neither is my love for you.